Confessions of a shopaholic
Self worth is a heart breaker. It’s cozy and comfortable to repeat the same destructive thought patterns, making insecurity our very best friend. This friend, that does not leave you at any hour of the day making any situation seem worse than it is. As a new student I walked into a College with more than 200 competitors , eyes ready to ogle at you from top to bottom, people desperate to judge, to make friends, trying to unfriend their insecurities and trying to find something comfortable, familiar.
I too, was drawn towards this feeling of self doubt and insecurity. However, I always found that I could shake this feeling off every time I went shopping. Finding something worth your money with the best offers and collection and retail shopping of clothes in stores provided me with the blanket of comfort. That’s when I realized retail therapy was an actual healer for me and I got to it. But being a student and limited wallet balance I needed to find something that would fit my requirement of fashion, trend and budget at the same time. That’s where Pantaloon’s from ABG came in. It perfectly fit what I wanted. The feeling of consumer being the king at the store, the feel of a new cloth on my same old face provided me with a sense of confidence. Buying these clothes that I wanted made me feel like I have my life in control and it still feels the same. The best part about it being, there are multiple stores in close vicinity in the same city so its easily accessible.I can keep using this therapy and trust pantaloons in my dark days. It is indeed such an integral part of my life that I may not be able to perform without it perfectly. It got me through 3 years of graduation college and I believe it’ll definitely help in future.
Like every other person, I have some ambitions in life that I want to achieve. They say “it’s okay to not know what you want” and I believe in it. I do not have any hard core goals set for life but I do know a few things like I want to buy my parents their dream house over the years. I can’t gift them a perfect house because I cannot guarantee the same lifestyle, the same laughter and the same conversations in that house like in my childhood but I wish to gift them something close to their dreamhouse. I believe I need to be big in the corporate world to enable this. Other than my technical skills (the importance of which fades away after a while over your social skills), I worked on my social skills.
Biggest lesson I’ve learned in life is the power of having friends. A wise man once said “if you have friends you have power” and I actually do strongly believe in it. The first problem that I overcame and still am working on is sustainability of friendship- I can make friends fast but I even lose them faster because I am not very good in keeping in touch with my friends, not because I do not want to but because of lack of time from both sides. Recently, I have started taking initiative to make it a pount to talk to all my important friends at least once a week. This I believe will also help me get the strength to maintain my relations in the corporate where the world works on networking and interpersonal skills.
Secondly, I am working over my quality of conversations . preferring “quality over quantity” is easy but maintaining and driving it yourself is actually difficult. Struggling to talk with people when topics like sports, politics, news came up was rather embarrassing . I have started reading news, keeping up with what is going on in the world and with the people around me. I have been successful in changing my conversations from “kitne aadmi the” to “Donald trump shenanigans” and others.
