What made me "ME" - TAPMI

“Hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things and no good thing ever dies”. Just another quote from another person would be the first thought occurring to the reader, but each of these mean ocean’s to people. Hope is what sailed me through my difficult time. A lucky kid was born on the day of Diwali. I was a mischievous, trouble making and a very talkative kid. I loved school and was among the top five in class. I still remember receiving the chocolate hamper from my principal. When life is all rainbows , is when the dark clouds and thunder hit you out of nowhere. I was abused by a family friend whom I knew when I was in fifth standard. Life was a downhill after this, I could not comprehend what had happened to me , I was in a notion that this was normal and was what happened to all the kids. I suffered from PTSD, Anxiety attacks , sleepless nights of crying or nightmare filled dreams for the next few years of my life until my 12^th standard. My grades dropped, I stopped being social, I was nervous all the time,  I reserved myself into a cocoon which nobody could step into. I did not muster the courage to tell my parents. Life was miserable I wanted it to end, I did not approach a counsellor. I prayed every day to put a end to me or this situation. Amidst this, my 12^th board exams were two months away when I scored a 2/100 in my math final state cluster exams. It hit me that this was not me, I needed to be there for myself, I needed to be better for myself, I was the only person who could bring in a new “me”. I started writing motivational speech for myself, I wrote articles to calm me down. I studied really hard. Fast forward and I had scored 91/100 in mathematics with an overall of 92 percent in my CBSE boards. I was so proud of myself. I had finally started to come out of shell slowly and writing got me out of it. And fast forward to the present where a shy , introvert is smiling , so proud of herself to share this article with so many people around. I consider myself lucky because that situation has taught me who I am , what I am capable of and I am so thankful for that. This is what made me “ME”.